In regards to BPD the things I DO NOT struggle w/ are:
self harm, suicidal thoughts/tendencies; only minor impulsivity.. no excessive spending, drugs or sex; I don't have any crazy, intense anger no fights, no outbursts, no getting physical; no serious levels of paranoia

The things I do have in regards to BPD:
Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment
A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships
Identity disturbance, such as a significant and persistent unstable self-image or sense of self
Emotional instability due to significant reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
Chronic feelings of emptiness

so I am kind of on the fence.. I definitely have some of the traits, but I also don't have some.. ugh.

I am going to see my Dr on the 10th. I have not been on meds for approx 6 mo.. I have xanax .5 that I can take PRN, but being in the profession and knowing how addicting benzos can be for some, I try to use only when absolutely necessary. (that's just me)