Reality is a difficult definition for most. We deal with what we have and try to do better. Seeing our own patterns and learning how to hold back on many is what make's me better. I think no matter how far I come I will always have to work. I will also have to have those times of absolute misery because of this. All we can do is wake up each day and try something different. The lie is what is perceived but in fact it is what we are. I know the feelings all too well but we can do right, no matter if it's a "lie" or not.