UPDATE: I wanted to update y'all on what has gone on since I originally posted my post. So much ups and downs have gone on. But, everything is finally looking up. I have a new Therapist whom I love to death. I have gone to outpatient groups and learned so much. My husband has also gone to groups and learned a lot. We are also in Marriage counseling to help us communicate better. I know that things are not going to change overnight and this is a long battle but I am determined to become healthy. My Family is my life and they need me. I want to be a good role model for my children to look up to. Thank y'all for the replies that I have received.