Thank You everyone, i really appreciate the support.
I text my T yesterday and explained how difficult i am finding this, and how strong the abandonment worries/memories are. She said that i could text her daily between now and our next session (Monday).
It was lovely of her to say that..but i am not sure i will. In the back of my mind i am wary of staying so attached to her, because she has the power to hurt me when/if she abandons me.

Urgh, this is so hard