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Originally Posted by HealingTimes
I have written a LOT to my T. She has kept almost all of the letters i have written. I think its useful for her to have, so she can look at it in greater detail and more understand things like my real feelings, my past experiences etc.
Also, i think we give more away than we realise, when we write.
I am just wondering, you say that you think your T could use it 'as evidence against you'..what do you mean? In what situation would this occur? Are you worried about any particular thing?
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One of my biggest fears is her forcing me (against my will) into a psych ward. I tend to sometimes go off the deep end (at least in my mind) but I always know how to reel it back in, I just need the time and space to do so. I've learned over the years how to manage myself appropriately (she has actually said how impressed she is at my self taught techniques throughout life). But still, for people who don't know me well - the things I say and think can sometimes scare them. I have had so many misunderstandings or overreactions because of my writing (parents, school teachers, counselors, etc.) that I actually burned all of my letters and journals and stopped writing for many years and have just started back. So I guess i'm still a bit paranoid.