That sounds like a rough day

.... I don't mean to speak ill about your T, but seems awfully insensitive of her to "throw around" the word love, when she should know how significant that would be to you. That, and then her going back on her word and taking the blame for the no-talking situation (which not to say is YOUR fault), just makes things confusing for you. If she's going to decide on a course of action, then she needs to stick to it; otherwise, she isn't doing either of you any favours.

I'm sure you're not boring to focus on. Everyone has something to offer, and everyone's story is unique. I hope that you and your T can have a good discussion about things, and figure out a way to best help you out.

Hugs,
Jacq