I know how you feel. Getting diagnosed is a trauma all it's own. I need therapy just for that. Learning how to live with it seems impossible. The stigma it creates is crippling. My only advice is to not tell people. No one needs to know. You wouldn't go around telling everyone you had herpes if you did right? There are only certain people and situations that require full disclosure and I think those are obvious. Keep it to yourself for now. At least until you are comfortable enough to share. Until then it's no one's business. Focus on getting better and nothing else.