I was in a 19 year marriage, always faithful while I lived with him. Now I find that after two nonserious relationships, that I don't know that I ever want anything more than a boyfriend. I feel better when I am not in a relationship, I accomplish my goals, I am less stressed. I don't want to have a relationship just so I don't get lonely now or when I am old. I have never felt this way before, I'm not sure what to think of it.