Well, it's been 2 weeks since I've seen my T because she wasn't working last week on account of her personal situation. I had decided that I would be a 'good' client and not burden her with any indication that her self-disclosure had affected me. I thought it might be a drag for her to have me inquire about her situation any more or to whine and complain about how it's affected our relationship.

Well, I have to tell you - as I've known all along, my T is a real professional. She began the session by asking me how her disclosure was affecting me. I told her that I had already decided I wasn't going to discuss it with her because I had chosen to be 'good'.
We both laughed at that.

I reminded her that when she did the disclosure I pointed out how difficult it might be for some of her clients and not realizing at the time that it would be tough for me too.

She assured me that she is just as available as ever and that I must not restrict my desire to reach out to her in time of need. She said she will clearly communicate if she cannot be available. When I told her I felt 'barred from reaching out to her', she felt bad for me.

And then when she later learned why I had such a need to contact her last week, she was adamant that I not restrict myself at all under those circumstances.

I feel like my T has returned to me. I am so lucky that she knows what will be problematic for clients. She said she's addressing this issue with all of them and she knows that her current situation could be a rich exploration of emotions for her clients.

Thanks all for your support.