I can be on my email and then I get intrussive thoughts that I sent an evil email to an old friend

But I know in my right mind I would never do anything like that

What gives me hope is telling myself why would I do that , I say to myself that would get me in trouble , my soul would never do that

It scares me cause I get intrussive thoughts about what trouble I'll get in , I have intrussive thoughts about somehow blacking out mentally during the day on my phone and all of a sudden sending bad messages to friends , I keep on telling myself that I'm in control and no way in my mind I would do that