OMG, I am so embarrassed and kind of shocked. Spent a hour with my T my last recent visit and will see him in 2 weeks again. We spoke about a lot of stuff and I told him how I was convinced I was BPD and a narcissist for a couple of months. He asked me were did I get that idea from. I told him talking to my friend who is a psychiatrist that I've known for a long time. He asked where she practices, I didn't know, he asked what her name was, I only knew her first name. He asked when did I meet her and where. I couldn't remember. He asked when was the last time I spoke to her. I couldn't remember. He asked what she looked like. He asked how many times have I spoke to her or seen her. I described her, but could not really pin point how many times we spoke or the last time I seen her. He asked me if it is possible she really does not exist. I was stunned! I had no answer. He said to think about it and if I remember any thing about her we can talk more. It bothered me I couldn't remember any details, important details. Then it hit me like a frying pan. She really does not exist! That is by far the creepiest delusion I have ever had!!! It's kind of scary actually. She can't exist! The pieces do not fit or make sense even to me now. I am too embarrassed to bring her up again at the next visit.