I homeschool 3 kids. I don't really have time to lift my mood. I did leave my pdoc a voicemail. I'm going to try taking my Klonopin again to see if it'll knock the edge off, I'm just so irritable and short fused. It's like I get over stimulated very easily all of a sudden. But the Klonopin makes me so sleepy. I did wake up with my youngest child today! But I was so irritable tonight that I didn't even care about my kids decorating the Christmas tree That is so out of character for me. Then later after they went to bed I sat and cried for an hour just looking at it. I took pictures while they decorated it, but my heart and head weren't in it. I hated myself for that so much. I feel like a mean stranger to myself.