Christmas is supposed to be a happy time of year. But I can't get out of bed. I haven't put out any decorations and all I can think about are the people that are no longer with us to enjoy this time of year. I haven't bought my kids any gifts yet either. I hate how it gets dark so early. I just sleep all day and I miss the Christmas spirit I used to have when my kids were little and the grandparents were alive. I'm just so sad and I don't know what to do.