Ive been going out with this girl for many years now she moved back to Ny im in mass we talked just a couple weeks ago about getting married now she is not sure about if things dont work I admit I wasnt keeping in touch as much as I should because of a bad week crippling deppression I decided I wanted to get better quit smoking and caffeine for less anxiety but now my world is torn I am angry at her but now if I show that it will make things worse I need some help