If you told them you do a 110 mph I can see why they don't want you to ride it. No you probably won't survive but what if you take someone else, someone innocent, with you? Would that be fair? Not trying to be mean, just stating the obvious. I hope you find some happiness soon...your life is not over yet, is there not something for you to look forward to...grandkids maybe? Anyway, not sure why I felt compelled to answer, but hope you find a medication that will make you feel better more than, what was it, 18 mins a day? Good luck to you.