Shay, like it or not, I think you need to see someone. Everyday you deal with other people's pain and death. That is a lot to absorb. Even if you don't get emotionally involved, it has to be weighing on you.

Psychiatrists and psychologists have their own therapists for that reason. They deal with the worst depression, suicide, abuse etc. To deal with that, they see their therapists. There is no shame in that. What would be a shame would be someone who helps others burning out because they had no outlet to deal with what they see and hear on a daily basis.

No, most of us don't know how you feel. We aren't in your position. I'm a veterinarian, and I can tell you first hand that when we have a period of time during which there were several animals I couldn't help and have had to deal with owners overcome by grief, it takes a toll on me. I've even had clients tell me that if I can't fix their pet, they will commit suicide.

Oncologists, pain management specialists, all who work with people's pain get into that same rut. Many wind up leaving because the emotional toll wrecked marriages, caused depression and just wiped them out.

Think about it at least.

Sam2