Hi Everyone, thanks for all the advice. I had T today and I told her. I feel so much better. Her response was that would of been so inappropriate if I did it. She kept repeating that. We did discuss that I should be able to discuss anything with my T and shouldn't go to another T. We discussed what I learned from this (my behavior impact others etc). I feel so much better.

We discussed my SI that occurred last week too. We now have a plan in place now how to handle.

She said she's not upset with me and we even hugged when the session was over. I feel really good about today's session even if it was hard.

Now if I could only mention the transference feeling but we do CBT and I don't think it will help to mention it again. Last time I did she just listened but didn't say much. I really like my T! She has helped me so much this past year.