i have gone through a lot lately
i lost my daughter
i lost my boyfriend
and in addition to that i was already severely depressed when these things happened
i did not think that i would survive it
but i just kept hanging on ---taking each day--sometimes each moment or second ---one at a time--i sought professional help from my therapist and i am actually smiling again--it is still rough--but i am making it through--anyway i have said all of this to say that there is always hope as long as you are alive and there is always help out there
know that no matter how horrible you feel that there were times when you did not feel this way
find what you need to keep hanging on and hold on to it tight
seek professional help
you will get better