Seems like I always feel worse after therapy. Either it's stuff that brings up anxiety, or I seize on something that could be remotely negative and blow it up in my mind. Actually, it's both. I end up blaming myself afterwards. My fault that I'm not trying.

I've given up on my paper. I have a little bit of text... maybe I'll get pity marks for it. I really don't know what to do. I can't focus. I tried. My brain threatened to explode just thinking about what to read and write. And the presentation? Hah!

Maybe I should give up on an education altogether; something I thought of in therapy today. Maybe it's pointless. I'm not smart enough. Can't even write a paper....

Last night, I tried to stay awake to study, but I was too tired. Tonight, I've given up on studying, and I'm up later than last night. Self-sabotage, I tells ya.