I GOT THE JOB!!!!

And I'm taking it, misgivings or no. I'll have to be really strict with myself about sleep and meds, but I will NEVER know if I can handle this or not if I don't try. Who knows.......the phone call yesterday and my acceptance of the position just solved a handful of problems that have been keeping me sick since May, so it might just be what I need to have a purpose in life again.

Besides....if the great State of Oregon trusts me to look after its vulnerable elderly and disabled, maybe I should learn to trust myself a little bit too. Thank you ALL for your encouragement!!!!