I've been having to really resist the urge to bolt too. I actually managed to tell my T that I almost didn't show up for the last appointment, and told him why.... I don't think I really had much emotion going on at the time though as I relatively shut down so that I could get it out.

I think this is the kind of fear that we're needing to face though, don't you think? And don't feel stupid discussing it with your T - she'll be glad that you shared. My T, based on what I said last time, sent me an email saying thank you and then said that he thinks he's been going too fast and is going to slow things down. Letting your T know will help her go at a pace that's tolerable to you instead of overwhelming you.