It's a call center, I've been going through an especially tough time both with anxiety and depression and it stresses me out. But it pays good, I have benefits, etc. On paper, I can't leave...if that makes sense....

But I feel like I'm falling apart. I make myself so anxious by lunch that I physically hurt. I was telling my wife last night that I feel like I have lost pieces of myself, like I'm outside looking in and I don't know what to do. I'm on 3 different medications but I don't feel like it is working. I don't expect to just be happy you know? I just want a glimmer of hope, I just want to look forward to something. I want to laugh again. I have seen therapist and not one of them has helped. The last one I was referred to made me feel worse and after seeing him 3 times, I found out he wasn't covered by my insurance, so now I feel even worse about that...