My T, like many others, does not allow out of session contact. I have her office number and am only to call it for changes in my schedule or to cancel. This kills me, because I'm very depressed and on the edge, as she knows. And I really need some extra support, however I don't know where to get some, I need face to face or if I know the person, like Angela, I could do phone, otherwise it doesn't really help me. I hate those crisis lines because those people are really very annoying. People always assume you need advice or give you ideas to distract yourself. All I am looking for is a verbal hug (Or real), some comfort, and some one to say 'your life is precious'. I use to have that with my counselor Robin, she use to say it to me alot, use to say 'you have so much worth' 'you have enormous value' etc. But I no longer have that and it's hard for me to remember when I'm drowning. It just doesn't feel real anymore. Even with my T's hug on monday to ground me I don't feel real.