Ok so a couple of you know the latest about my little "romantic" story that I'm having with my gamer girl as I've pm'd you about it. you all know just exactly why I am feeling almost entirely positive about it. So please sit down as I tell you the truth... I still doubt myself. >.<

So yeah... I was thinking as I headed to my car on my way to lunch. "ok so where are these doubts coming from?" Inside. Inside of me, I know that I lack something that should be self-sustaining and something that makes me self-sufficient or at least as a normal person would be. I live for the compliments and the flirting and the regular interactions with her but when she is absent, when I am away, myself, some of the optimism fades.

So this morning, I sent her a heart felt message. I said tht she makes my day better, that because of her I think maybe I'm not such a bad guy after all and she give me confidence in myself. She does that.

Of course the way life goes we always get a wrench thrown in and she replied with "thats what friends do." AAAAHHHHHHHHHH noooooooooo. Did she mean to push back? Was I getting too mushy? scared now.