Yea, I start getting depressed when I was 15,I'm almost 17 now.
Personally I don't want to get better- I don't know why though.

I'm just depressed now,& if I'm depressed for long periods of times, I get exteremely suicidal. I get really strong urges.

IDK why it goes in cycles, but I'm not happy. I kinda hate myself. I'm just so rude.