I've been depressed for a long time, but it has been usually been manageable till about two weeks ago. It started with my ex getting a new gf after we almost got back together. I was so hurt. Then I had a startling realization about someone I had an intimate relationship with. But instead of being more hurt I've become numb. I feel nothing except pain and emptiness. It scares me how rationally I can think about everything. Why it hurts, why the person did what they did, what I actually meant to them... I feel nothing about it not even more sadness. I've never self-harmed in the past- thought about it a lot but never acted. Not that I couldn't but i knew it was wrong and I could heal. but I feel like I'm at a tipping point and things like scratching myself is actually relaxing. I am taking to a T, but I've only been to her a few times and I don't know if bringing up my whole history has contributed to it... I don't know what to do. Advice please