Glad to know that you're reaching out in this forum. I've had two bouts of major depression in my 48 years, both of which did not emerge until I was well over 40. I'm sure that you've both (unfearless/Fox & the Hound) have heard/read about what has helped others. These forums helped me, as did medications in the short term.

Upon reflection, what consistently helps me has been to stay in the present, always looking for that for which I am thankful. Looking too far ahead, for me, always results in anxiety, and rehashing the past results in depression.

Do what you can to find a community of people from whom you can draw support. Stay connected; give therapy a try; if that doesn't work, then try a combination of medication and therapy...above all, know that depression does subside...it has for me.

Best wishes to you in finding some comfort from the debilitating effects of depression.