Hi Freewill,

Thanks. It does help. I appreciate your reaching out to me.

It's hard to engage with other people without feeling awkward about my inability to work and I know most people think it's just an excuse, like "I wish I could not work and get paid for it."

And I'm not only broke but in the red. I do ridiculous things just to survive, and for what? More suffering. I live in elderly/disabled housing. I'm so ? I dunno, nothing ever gets better no matter how much I try. Right now I'm trying to figure out how I can get a jar of coffee and a little thing of milk. I feel like a stressed out rat in a cage. The only escape hatch is within my range of vision but impossible to reach.

F.W., I know you didn't sign up for this rambling, I'm sorry.

The people I've "met" so far have been supportive and wise. That's a positive, esp. since I just signed on yesterday.

Have a good day, thank you again.

Emma