I totally hear you on the panic over having to move back - I've had to do that too. It was horrific. I was basically in meltdown city for almost a year before going back! (was in England on a 2-year visa. It was ending and I had to go back).

I didn't think that becoming financially independent was your only goal for indepedence though?

What are you (and your T) working on to help you handle those thoughts and emotions? Like... what stuff has she been teaching/encouraging you to do when she's not around? I'm assuming that you did at least give them a go yesterday - because you did manage to spend the day solo! I'm just curious as to what you did that helped you through that. Honestly, I'd like to be able to give you props for doing whatever it was you were doing and help encourage you to do it more often. Because the solo skills are the ones that will help you the longest throughout your life.