Please forgive me for this post.....I just need to vent before I go insane. I am sure my dad is going to divorce my mom very soon. I thought he should have before, I thought he knew everything that happened in their relationship, what she has done to me and my younger brother, but my dad did not know the whole story until a few days ago. My mother has lied to him time and time again. I have PTSD from her cheating and I seriously think I am going to vomit if I start to think about it a lot.....My mom had 3 boyfriends that I remember. I have constant flashbacks of it, the one guy actually hit me and my mom did nothing to stop it. Today my dad thought it would help me get beyond this if he drove me to those houses....he started down the road. He had no idea I remembered the roads and the flashbacks started. I told him what I saw, how mom was so happy with those men and promised her life to them, each of them......

So tonight when my mom gets home, my dad might confront her. He wants to talk to my brother first, but he has not called back yet, as he is still at work in SC (we are in PA). I just want to know.....I have experienced turmoil and uncertainty in my parents' marriage before. I begged my dad to leave but I never said why. This time he knows. He said this time him and I might just buy a house in NC and move and start over. What is divorce like? My dad will need a psychiatrist and a therapist to help deal with this, that I know. How do I help him??? My mom blames me for everything already (even though I have not brought this up in over 5 years) and has recently told me I should check myself into a psych ward yet again.... Just wanting to know what to do to help support my dad....I can see the pain in his eyes when I look at him. I am just wondering what all hell is gonna break loose later. I am scared. I am 31. This all happened to me when I was 4, 5, and 6. I am just now dealing with it.....my mind is forcing me to.....any suggestions on how to support my dad would be much appreciated. My mom cut him off from all his friends....she has severe mental illness......sigh.