The I.B.S. took a toll on me one time for 5 solid years. Anytime I ate the meal, I went right away.

Partially, that time in my life left me with still having delicate muscles in the admodem. Part of the pain that hurts so so very very very bad, that, I experience every time I have to eat a medium to large portion of food, makes me cautious about eating much at all, if I can prevent it. The trade in price goes up because of the pain pain pain pain and pain that it causes, especially in the upper admodem. Than I get bloating that I can't live with, so I resist all the impulses, urges, and hungers for the fine dining, since these kind of symptoms literally aren't WORTH-IT.

You know I get so so so so so so so jelous when other people sit and eat and enjoy every bite and than afterwards sit down relaxing and have little or no adverse effect from food.

I'm sorry that the Immodiam won't work. It is terrible for you. You have to basically FEAR meal time. I just try to find other fullfilling things in my life to make me happy. Eating meals is not one of them. I am jelous of others that can do that and that don't have to think about it!

We have eachother here at the board. I love each and every one of you ladies and YES, we are making progress, and we are on the journey back.

By the way, I ate toast with margerine and sliced hard boiled egg before 12 noon. I just ate a small amount. Thankyou all for encouraging sharing here. I "am becoming alittle more BRAVE, because I have you in my life, and started to want to try again."
Razeljenny