Hey everybody,

Thanks again for all of your responses. It is so nice to hear the support and opinions of people who know what it is like to deal with bipolar.

As an update I will tell you all that she actually called me and expressed extreme regret for having told me the whole no hope thing. Said over and over again that it was so inappropriate and all about her issues and she should never have put them on me and she was so sorry. She was genuine and upset. And I was guarded. I said I accepted that apology but there was too much other hurt at this point that I just didn't know what I could do moving forward and I kinda went ahead and put it all out there everything I am so upset about in the way she has been behaving and treating me recently and I thought we were going to just go into another round of her defensiveness but she actually broke down and was super sorry that she hurt me so much and doesn't know what she has been thinking and she can't imagine life without me as her friend and she will do anything to make it better etc. It was like the friend I haven't had for five months came back from the space ship. So weird. I was like well that is all great but it is going to be a long road back and I don't know what I will actually be able to do. I laid out all kinds of things I wanted her to do and not do etc. So we will see.

Historically she has sucked as a friend when under a lot of stress. She just like is not herself at all. I think this job is really too much for her. I told her one of my requirements is that she get into therapy ASAP.

So anyway. I am glad she finally got it and came back to herself. I remain guarded and I think I learned a valuable lesson about how to keep my own boundaries and walls up even though I need people sometimes.

Just wanted to share with you all..

Thanks again and again