I am sorry but the way your posts are organized (poorly structured with lack of clarity) and the language you use (full of typos, such as "I diagnosis people daily") and the fact that you do not know the symptoms characteristic of BPD by heart but have to "review the diagnosis" are all not consistent with how you represent yourself as a professional - you are saying that you work as a counselor. If indeed you are a counselor, then all of those lapses that your posts in this thread have exhibited signal that you have completely lost your bearings and indeed are in need of urgent HELP - from a psychiatrist, most likely. You also have memory problems - you introduced yourself as an LPC and then started wondering if you did. Report all of those lapses to the psychiatrist or therapist or both, please.