Your story is heartbreaking. Sounds like you need a plan--either way. Can you get some professional advice? There may be free services available. Perhaps there is a shelter where you can go. I've been in your situation, minus the child, and it did not end well. I was financially stressed as I was a student, and what little I had he took. In retrospect keeping me financially strapped was a method of control. I kept waiting for a major personality change, which of course never happened. For you, unless there is enough real evidence of a caring partner (not memories of such) then it may be best to make a fresh start. Think of your child. Lots and lots of pain in the process, but perhaps worth the effort.