Yes she does. She really doesn't want to send me back. She thinks it is really really dangerous and risky but there literally is no other way. My parents said they would completely cut me off if I don't go back for winter break. I have absolutely no way of paying for anything so quickly AND I have no credit so I can't get any loans. I'd be completely cut off of their health coverage as well. So I'd be homeless. They don't even care.

I've come up with so many different ways to stay here. My mother vetoed all of them and absolutely wouldn't cooperate. There is literally no other way.

She is trying to figure out how to keep me safe. She said she wants me to email her/call her throughout break and she gave me her personal info so I can do that. She will be doing that actually without pay because I won't be in the program I'm seeing her in anymore. She also came up a plan that involves basically peer mediating between me and my mom. It won't be enough to actually fix the problem. The problem will mostly be my intense flashbacks I have there and now with these foggy memories of potential CSA, it will only be worse.

She is very worried. I'm very worried. The program is very worried. It's just a mess and I literally have no options but be homeless. I'm meeting with someone to help me get a part time job in Boston so I can hopefully at least have some job experience/some savings/figure out how to get a credit score so she can't just blind side me like this again. Ugh.