I'm in my sophmore year in high school, so my parents are stressing my grades and keeping them high for colleges to look at.

But, ever since 7th grade, when my grandmother died, I've been severely depressed to the point I've self-injured myself during my 8th-9th grade year. I've just about failed almost every year and class, but somehow managed to come through. But this year I've already failed a History class were I need to go to summer school.

I try so hard, and my parents don't understand that. I'm always sad, most of the time without even a problem. I felt bad so I told my mom about my self-mutilation problem later in my 8th grade year. She didn't really seem to care much for me to get help.

I can love life for a day, then hate it for a week or so. I've broken so many phones from me being mad over things

I want help. I don't want to mess the rest of my 2 years in highschool to go to waste because I never got help.

It's hard dealing with everything. Grades, parents, friends (which I have none...besides a boyfriend), a grandmother with severe Alzheimers and everything else.