i'm so sorry that you're going through so much pain right now. i counsel geriatric patients and i see what you're dealing with on a weekly/daily basis.

i want to commend you for being there for your grandmother. i see a lot of patients that never have any company and even if they don't recognize you, a warm touch and a kiss on the cheek is felt. feeling is always there....even if you just sit by her bed and hold her hand or stroke her hair, that is comforting to the patient.

please go online and find a support group for yourself. you'll find people who are experiencing what you are feeling and discussing it with them will really help you. google alzheimers support groups......let me know how that goes for you.....

if i can help you in any way, please PM me.....xoxoxo pat