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Old Dec 07, 2013, 03:24 AM
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I haven't since August but today I took a break at work and did it in the bathroom. I don't get urges in itself to do this, but when I am overwhelmed emotionally I have done it to relieve the emotional pain like transferring it to physical pain and I feel a calmness. Usually it's when I feel like I am stupid and someone has said something that hurt me, so I hurt myself as a way of not letting them be the ultimate one that hurt me since it was me that did it. I don't know if that makes sense. Lately the depression hurts to the point where my head hurts and everything is dark in my head. Yet I have to keep it together at work and keep going otherwise I could lose everything since I am my only sole support. I live alone and there is no family that would help me. I have been pretty good at talking myself out of SI when I have been emotional. My doctor doesn't understand why I have done this. So I don't talk about it to anyone not even him.
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Dx: OCD, Depression, Anxiety, ADHD
Meds:
Luvox 100mg (2 in am/2 in pm)
Buspar 30 mg/twice daily
Wellbutrin (Buprop 24 XL) 300 mg 1 daily
Vyvanse 60 mg 1 daily,
Ambien 1/4 of 10 mg tablet at night.

Other meds I have taken in the past:
Imipromine - Dazed, urinary tract pain, Prozac - Intensified OCD symptoms, Paxil - Made me angry and antisocial, Zoloft - Diarrhea, Effexor - Spaced out and feeling in a fog, Ambilify - Made me aggressive and angry, Lamictal - Made me angry
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