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Originally Posted by LymaBeane
I haven't since August but today I took a break at work and did it in the bathroom. I don't get urges in itself to do this, but when I am overwhelmed emotionally I have done it to relieve the emotional pain like transferring it to physical pain and I feel a calmness. Usually it's when I feel like I am stupid and someone has said something that hurt me, so I hurt myself as a way of not letting them be the ultimate one that hurt me since it was me that did it. I don't know if that makes sense. Lately the depression hurts to the point where my head hurts and everything is dark in my head. Yet I have to keep it together at work and keep going otherwise I could lose everything since I am my only sole support. I live alone and there is no family that would help me. I have been pretty good at talking myself out of SI when I have been emotional. My doctor doesn't understand why I have done this. So I don't talk about it to anyone not even him.  |
LymaBeane--I know EXACTLY how U feel. I self-harm to relieve emotional distress. After I cut,I do feel calm & relieved. Later on I regret having done it,&
not having dealt w/ whatever more appropriately.
The thing that bothers me the most about your post is what U said about your doctor. I'm sorry your doc doesn't understand & isn't supportive of U. I have an
issue w/ pdoc @ the moment,but still think he is very good. My T is excellent &
is extremely supportive. If you don't have a dr. & T that U can trust & R basically
supportive in which U can B honest about what is going on w/ U,& B HEARD BY
THEM when U R in distress then U need to get a new pdoc,& T. I know that's scary,but it may B the best thing 4 U.
