I have always had depression and anxiety. I have ptsd and panic attacks. I am some better thanks to medication, and lots of therapy. I take effexor, wellbutrin, ambien, gabapenten, abilify, prasosin and terazosin. I believe I am having derealization now as episodes of feeling that this life is't real, that I could do something horrible but it would'nt be real, and these make me sick to my stomach and panic. I also have bought items that I have no recollection when or where I was. This is a new thing. Also, I often break out with terrible itching and scratch myself raw on hands,arms, legs and feet. I feel this is due to anxiety. I have hypervigilance, and taking a shower is a great task/chore. At least I keep my apt tidy. WOW I have Never posted anything this long, I'm ranting, sorry. Maybe I'll feel better now. What do you think about that?