Hi, out I have been feeling like I have been doing better depression wise. I can tell it's way better then 6 weeks ago. But, I have been doing those stupid quizes and eventhough I have improved, it still says I am moderately to severely depressed. Same with anxiety. I am scared about this. I want to be better. I want to do the work my T and I are doing about reframing my beliefs about myself from early and not so early trauma. We were going to do more EMDR today, which is work, but it took so damned long to get ready we ran out of time. I am worried that I will have to go back to work and sink back to the depression and feelings of powerlessness. I do not want this. May take another increase in the ssri. Should have told the doc today but it came up later. so, what to do? The thing we were working on today was about my foster daughter who died and my feelings of if I were a good enough person she would still be here. Basically that sums it up. If I were good enough bad things wouldn't happen. I know it makes no sense but it's inside. Blah.