I know I haven't been posting lately. To be honest, it feels like I've fallen off the radar in the real world as well. The guy I've been dating and living with for over a year (who also eventually became my boss when I started working at the bar he owns) kicked me out and fired me a few days before Thanksgiving. The reasoning behind all this? Because after I closed the bar one night I went across the street to my friend's apartment and played Grand Theft Auto with his 13 year old son. This is a guy who my BF "Jon" absolutely HATED. Because he felt especially intimidated by "Brad" because he knew we had slept together once years ago. Jon gets snippy with anyone I even talk to. There's even a yelp review from a customer whose name I didn't even recognize calling him "lurch the bar owner" and said that he felt really uncomfortable talking to the bartender because he Jon was just sitting at the end of the bar drinking and looming at anyone who even joked around with me.

The thing is, the only way he found out about me going to Brad's place is that the cameras on the the outside of the bar point directly across the street to Brad's front door. He sat in his office for hours after that looking over all the video footage and saw me go to his place. He asked me about it and I lied. I know that was wrong to lie, but I only did it because he's so possessive and controlling and he hates Brad. I've tried to even put on a whole show for Jon before about how I know that Brad's a jerk and I don't like him, but the truth is I like hanging out with him. He's just a friend who is a guy! Nothing more, nothing less, but if Jon hated him, I was expected to also. That's just unfair. Jon's jealousy and passion for control and complete and utter insecurity has made me feel completely isolated and friendless. If I wasn't at the bar and on camera, I was at the apartment. He even started giving the cold shoulder when I finally developed a friendship with a GIRL!!! I started having a life outside the bar, and suddenly Jon doesn't care for her that much all of a sudden and began to treat her accordingly.

I know it was wrong to lie. But going over to a friend's place to play video games with his KID?! I mean, GOD, Brad was in bed right after opening the door because I was on "bar hours" while Brad is on "I'm a foreman and have to wake up at 6 am" hours. Jon changed the locks on both the door and the apartment, leaving me to spend my money and Thanksgiving in a hotel.

I said to him he was never in love with me. Jon is a man who is in love with controlling everyone.