So I have been wanting to meet this girl for over a year now, but I have NEVER had the opportunity. I find her so beautiful, and I would ask her out in a heart beat. Only thing is, I've always been to shy to approach her. I always see her from afar. And when we do cross paths, it catches me so off guard I freeze up and look down away from her. I get a slight stuttering problem when I get nervous, so that has been one of the reasons I always avoided saying hi, especially when it would just be out of the blue. But last night I had the perfect opportunity. I was with my housemate at the local pizza shop at night, and then I see her and her friend walk in. We were already sitting down eating as she was in line with a friend. I wanted so much to approach her but I didn't know what to say.

To just go up to her, while her friend was there and introduce myself just felt like it would be creepy and invasive. So I didn't. I just ended up talking to my friends around me, and basically just tried to act cool, like I didn't even notice her. It's a weird feeling. I try so hard to look like I don't acknowledge her presence, while I am trying so desperately hard to get her attention. I always do this, as ridiculous as it sounds, and it is really starting to frustrate me. Why do I always do this?? Maybe she did notice me, but I didn't approach her. I just didn't see an opportunity!!! She was talking to her friend, I was talking to mine, and there was no overlap. I tried smiling at her, but it just wasn't enough. Maybe if we were waiting in line together and she said something like ohh.. I wonder if this pizza is good... or wooow this place gets crazy at night! (it's where all the drunk college kids go at 2 in the morning basically), I would have said something humorous to her to make conversation. but no. no opportunity. So I ended up leaving with my friend, never talking to her. It was a very odd and frustrating combination of feeling very huge regret, but at the same time, a sense of understanding in that I didn't blame myself for it, since there was no opportunity, so I couldn't be too mad at myself. I still feel really bad though