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Originally Posted by tealBumblebee
Just kind of impulsively sat in my car and used one of my makeshift blades to cut a small (dime/nickel) sized broken heart into my inner arm. I'm oddly very satisfied with it. I just do the most random things sometimes. *shrug* At least my moods been pleasant lately.  |
tealBumblebee--First of all,it's so good to hear from you. I'm sorry U carved on
yourself. What was going on in your mind when you cut yourself?? It doesn't make sense to me that your mood could B okay & at the same time your cutting
yourself. I have been having a very hard time recently with cutting too. I was talking w/ 2 of my best friends who know about my problems. I gave them the
razor blades I had,but didn't want to give them my scissors,even though I only
carry them so I have something to hurt myself w/ if I feel the need. My friends,
D & J,made the point that while scissors do have useful purposes,for someone like me,they are a temptation to me & therefore not a good thing for me to carry
around,if I'm serious about wanting to NOT CUT. Recently I cut & didn't get the
same sense of relief & calm that I normally get. That means the next time I cut,
if I do--which hopefully I won't---I will have to cut deeper in order to get the relief I will be seeking. Pls let me know what you're thinking.
