Wow. I'm 57 and will be turning 58 in a few days. My 19 year old daughter died 3 years ago(from an infection acquired in the hospital she was taken to after being in a car accident).-she was the only person on earth whom I felt really cared. I just found out that my 27 year old son, who I have been trying to help(building a place to live on some adjoining land)is doing drugs (and other immoral things) he has been communicating with my younger son age 17(planning to do some drugs,etc) who I just paid for a ticket to visit for Christmas. My son accidentally left their conversations from 3 weeks on my computer-right there when I turned it on.I also learned some things going on in my younger sons life. I feel so much loss and betrayal. I was a single parent for so long(left abusive marriages)I really tried to give my children a good life. Talking about growing old alone.....i don't know if i can stand the pain of losing my children. I am so alone-no family and moved here 2 years ago-the trauma and pain of my past seems to consume me-yes growing old alone.