tealBumblebee--First of all,it's so good to hear from you. I'm sorry U carved on yourself. What was going on in your mind when you cut yourself?? It doesn't make sense to me that your mood could B okay & at the same time your cutting yourself. I have been having a very hard time recently with cutting too. I was talking w/ 2 of my best friends who know about my problems. I gave them the razor blades I had,but didn't want to give them my scissors,even though I only carry them so I have something to hurt myself w/ if I feel the need. My friends, D & J,made the point that while scissors do have useful purposes,for someone like me,they are a temptation to me & therefore not a good thing for me to carry around,if I'm serious about wanting to NOT CUT. Recently I cut & didn't get the same sense of relief & calm that I normally get. That means the next time I cut, if I do--which hopefully I won't---I will have to cut deeper in order to get the relief I will be seeking. Pls let me know what you're thinking.