That's a pretty heavy cross to carry, MTJ. That's a really, really big secret to hold onto.

You have, what sounds like an ideal life, that many would be envious to have, and yet, this impending fear of doom, because not one person is to ever know, that MTJ had a moment in his life, where his thoughts were too dark, and was ordered into a day treatment program.

I cannot fathom, a life with a spouse, where I couldn't be open, at least to say, listen, I needed or still need a little one on one counseling in my life, my stress levels got out of hand, and that was the only way I knew how to deal with it, so that I could continue to provide for this life that we lead.