Yeah ya think a-hole?? But then I can't stop crying so what is it. I told him it's more of a mixed thing cuz I'm very depressed. But yea everything needs to change NOW! I have to put all the clutter & even the dishes into trash bags & store in the garage tonight. No I don't have time to go to dinner tonight. I have to clean this shizzhole house tonight before I go crazier or blow it up. Save pics of the kids though. Then he wants to talk about how it got this way. He's hurting my brain. Stop. I don't have head space to talk about how I let it get this bad & remind what a failure I am. Must fix it NOW. Finally found the solution. Throw it all in the garage. He says he been trying to get me to go through the boxes already in garage for years. Stop it I can't take it. This is what I'm doing tonight. Bring ur own dinner over & help me or don't. Don't complain that I'm manic later if u do choose to come over. Now I just need to stop crying and get out of this laundrymat. Still have to fold 15 loads. I hate laundry so much. So much.