Just feel empty today - hollow. I think I should be ecstatic because I had cataract surgery on weds. And I can see better in that eye than I have in over 40 years. But I just don't feel it. Instead, I'm waiting for something to go wrong with it or that the fix with my other eye won't go well.

Was crying this morning - well, weeping. I was remembering all the really neat people who I went to college with all those years ago, but I never really got to know any of them for real. I missed out on so much because of anxiety and depression in my life.

I think I'll climb out of my funk to go watch graham norton with my sweetie. He'll like that. He misses me when I'm like this.