TBH Syra, what i think is that therapists think they know what they're asking for without being prepared for what they might actually get. So she might think she wants me to reach out to her, to attach to her securely etc but in all likelihood she has no idea what that entails, is she even prepared for the journey ahead?
Maybe it's just better not to go "there" in the first place. And that's what i'm trying to achieve by not contacting her outside of session. I'm not good at being balanced lol i'm either at one end of the spectrum or the other it seems.